New Found Motivation

I've been overwhelmed by school work and study lately; however, I feel very at ease and productive. I admit that I've contemplated giving up on my dream so many times in the past few years because I just don't think I'm good enough. Now I say to myself, "if I don't even belief in myself; why should others?!" So like this poster, I will try various ways to achieve my goal -- maybe it is going to take me longer than others; maybe it will be a thorny path. As long as I don't give up; one day I will succeed in summiting my very own Mount Everest.

I applied again to the law schools in HK... let's see where God guides me this time.

Also, I would like to take this opportunity to thank Bill for his kind encouragement. His blog is very insightful; check out his entries if you are interested in law/politics.

Finally back...

Haven't written a post in so long as my blog seemed to have gone haywire and died on me. Anyways, I am finally able to write again.

I have recently completed a month as a judge's marshal in the judiciary and it has been an invaluable experience. I was able to see the styles of different judges and see the cases from a different angle. This month has really given the motivation and courage to move forward in my legal career.

Disappointed

It's a gloomy day today. I was unsuccessful in my application to my school of choice. I must say I am very disappointed but it somewhat is a relief to find out a definite answer.

A lot of people ask me why I bother to apply to another law school when I am already studying in one. My answer to them is usually about my aim for higher quality education; which, doesn't seem to register in these people's minds. Most of them think "Law school is law school; what's the difference?" But to me, I want a higher quality education because I want to be a good lawyer in the future. I don't want to go to a school where I am told that I only need to memorize this section for the exam and forget about the other section. I am there to learn and improve on my legal knowledge; not to pass my exams.

After I got the news, I sat there thinking about ways to improve my chances of being admitted next year. I can't exactly change my results for my undergraduate degree; but what I can do is to immerse myself in the legal field. Maybe I can try to be a court marshal, internships at law firms and mini pupilage. Hopefully these experiences will improve my chances for success in the coming year.

For now, I guess I will continue to attend my current law school and make the best out of the situation.

Beautiful British Columbia

I am home! It's so great that I am finally home after 2 years. It is nice to see my family and relax a bit; away from the craziness of Hong Kong. When I planned to come home last year, I had a whole list of To-Do items. But now that I'm back, I feel that the best way to spend my time in Vancouver is just to spend my time with my family. I may not have the perfect family but every family has a different story; mine may be crazy at times, but I believe that we love each other deep down.

I am still waiting for the good news from the school I applied to. I am really hoping for a miracle...

Light at the end of the tunnel

One more exam then I am free... it has been a stressful month preparing for my exams. But I understand that it was nothing compared to the life of a lawyer. Hopefully, I will pass all my courses so I still have a back up plan if the program that I applied for won't accept me. Of course, I'd much rather get accepted into the new program then staying in my current one.

It would be quite disappointing if I don't get admitted because it will be a chance for me to have a fresh start... a much needed fresh start and second chance to pursue something I want to do. A chance for me to pursue my dreams without any distractions. When I think back into my university life, I never really got to enjoy what it was like to be a dedicated full-time student. I have always had a full-time job while pursuing my full-time study; so it's difficult for me to say that I had an amazing university student life. I am hoping this new program will give me a chance to experience something that I crave... the life of a student. I have been reading forums regarding the application status, and it seems that a lot of people who applied later than me have already received their offers. I am a bit deflated, but I guess it's out of my hands now. I could only hope that I will see the light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Searching...

Sometimes, I wonder if He listens... on the one hand, I am sure that He's everywhere and watching our every move. But sometimes, it seems like He's completely ignoring me. Or maybe I'm running away from Him... I don't know. But I want Him in my life again

A Better Future

I quit my job! I have been saying this for a while now but I finally did it. I wasn't able to concentrate on school as much as I would like and I believe this will be better for my ultimately. I just received an email from my program notifying me that I did not fulfill the minimum attendance record.  I hope they will consider that I have already quit my job and am determined to finish the program. At the same time, I still haven't received the admission offer from the program I wish to be admitted. I am really worried but what can I do? Quitting my job is a really significant gesture that I am determined to pursue my legal career. But it seems there are constant obstacles in the way. Is it a sign that I shouldn't be pursuing this? I'm really confused... I don't know what to do.