Home Sick

I have been in Hong Kong for two and a half weeks now and am still looking for a job. There are plenty of jobs available but it seems like nothing is what I want to do. Maybe I have too high of an expectations... Sometimes I regret that I did not work hard enough at school... maybe I should've concentrated on school instead of work... I am not sure if any company is even interested or value my work experience.

I still don't have a place to live and I miss having a place to call my own. It's really difficult to live out of a drawer.  I surprised myself that I cried so hard because I was home sick; it never once occurred to me that I would be so upset about leaving home. I've always thought that Hong Kong was my home... but maybe I didn't realize that all these years Vancouver has already became my home.

The people in Hong Kong is a little difficult to get used to... many are really rude and impolite...sigh.... 

I can't believe that as a university graduate, I can't even afford a 100 sq ft. of living space.... I saw this demonstration flat in Ikea yesterday,  the flat was 346 sq. ft. and I LOVED the space! I would love to be able to live in a space like that... it was so cozy! I hope I will be able to have a place to call my own soon.

Sometimes I feel that my boyfriend wouldn't understand me because he has nothing much to worry about in his life. He has a nice home, school term waiting ahead... everything going for him. Why would he want to leave his cozy life and live with me... I know he's always trying to comfort me... a few years may fly by for him... but to me these 2.5 weeks feels like half a year. I am not sure if he understands the pain that I am going through..... the effort that he will spend "waiting" to marry me in the next few years will not be the same as the effort that I will need to put out.

I just don't know what to do...maybe I should just pack it up and go home...

Stressed out of my brain

Sigh... I am really stressed out... still no news from any law school... except for the fact that one of them won't be offering the part-time programme this year... I am so unlucky... why?! I really hope that I can get this opportunity to pursue my dream... 

Is it going to be better!?

Congratulations to my Dearest friend!

Congratulations!! I am so happy for you, you got accepted into the Juris doctor programme! You rock! I really hope that you will accept the offer =) Even though I am still waiting for my acceptance letter... maybe we will become classmates... if not... at least I can live my dream vicariously through you... lol

You keep telling me that I shouldn't worry about my application status until all my finals are done... but you know that's hard... I guess maybe I won't be accepted... and God just doesn't want me to be all upset and stuff like that. Which I guess I would be really sad if that's the case... I don't know if I'd have courage to try applying again next year... I mean if they don't accept me this year... why would they accept me next year... right?

Anyway... this post is not about me... I am dedicating it to you, my love...

Sleepless Nights

I must say I really love to sleep but I don't think I will get much of that during the next week.

It's hard to believe that I only have 1 week left in my bachelor's career (or so I hope!)... I can't say I am gonna miss this because I really want this to be over so I can start a new chapter of my life. I am really hoping that the next chapter will be much more exciting and fulfilling.

Regardless, I know I will have my love in the next chapter of my life. I am really glad that I have a person by my side encouraging me and cheering me on all the time. I don't know what I will do without him and I would really like to thank him for accepting me for who I am and taking all kinds of crap from me. LOML!

It's a Gloomy Day in Vancouver!

It's a gloomy day for me both inside and out... I felt really deflated after yesterday's final exam. I feel like such a failure! I studied for it.. and I just didn't do as well as I'd hoped.

So I have finished 3 finals now... 4 more to go next week and 3 more essays to complete. I really hope I can finish the essays in 3 fulls days because I really don't have much time to get them done anymore... I am really stuck though... I need an energy boost.... hell... any boost will do... Still no news from any law school, but my boyfriend as already been conditionally accepted... >__< I really hope I get a response soon, I hate this wait... this endless and torturous wait! I wonder if I'll even get in.. and if I don't I really don't know what to do with my life! It's really sad to thing that my life is down to the line. It feels that if I don't get this my life is gonna be over; I am just gonna be a failure forever... yeah yeah I know that's not true.. but I can't help but think that way! I feels like time flew by in the past month. I really need it to slow down so I can think; so I can finish my work...

It's a gloomy day in Vancouver....

A Productive Day

Yesterday I had a 9 hours essay writing session at school.... Completed a 20 page case brief!!! Gotta say pretty proud of myself and my team.... well half a team I guess since one person didn't show up until half way through.

I kinda am having a bad start to my day so far... Initially I wanted to wake up early and study... but I was so tired from yesterday that I slept in instead >__<

The Battle with my Final Exams

It's been awhile since I've visited my blog. It's been a hectic year... Final year of my undergrad study!! I have mixed feelings about graduation. For one I am really excited to finally be done; at the same time, I am kinda scared to face the future. I really hope that I will get into law school and really start to see a clearer future for myself.

In the mean time, I need to finish my 7 finals, 3 essay and 1 law brief. My boyfriend keeps telling me to take one step at a time...well... I guess that's all I can do for now.

I want to get in shape before I head back to Hong Kong; for started I wanna enjoy the Vancouver weather as much as possible before I leave. Secondly, I am kinda feeling unhealthy lately. So I am trying to stop eating meat and just eat fruits, veggies and seafood. It's actually harder to do then I can imagine!! Chicken wings... I am gonna miss that a lot. Well... I will see if I can keep up with this diet. Another part in my "get healthy" plan is to do more exercise. I did a half hour run today, but I keep running out of breath... I am trying to run at least 3 times a week. Well... I will use this blog to keep track of my progress.