I have been in Hong Kong for two and a half weeks now and am still looking for a job. There are plenty of jobs available but it seems like nothing is what I want to do. Maybe I have too high of an expectations... Sometimes I regret that I did not work hard enough at school... maybe I should've concentrated on school instead of work... I am not sure if any company is even interested or value my work experience.
I still don't have a place to live and I miss having a place to call my own. It's really difficult to live out of a drawer. I surprised myself that I cried so hard because I was home sick; it never once occurred to me that I would be so upset about leaving home. I've always thought that Hong Kong was my home... but maybe I didn't realize that all these years Vancouver has already became my home.
The people in Hong Kong is a little difficult to get used to... many are really rude and impolite...sigh....
I can't believe that as a university graduate, I can't even afford a 100 sq ft. of living space.... I saw this demonstration flat in Ikea yesterday, the flat was 346 sq. ft. and I LOVED the space! I would love to be able to live in a space like that... it was so cozy! I hope I will be able to have a place to call my own soon.
Sometimes I feel that my boyfriend wouldn't understand me because he has nothing much to worry about in his life. He has a nice home, school term waiting ahead... everything going for him. Why would he want to leave his cozy life and live with me... I know he's always trying to comfort me... a few years may fly by for him... but to me these 2.5 weeks feels like half a year. I am not sure if he understands the pain that I am going through..... the effort that he will spend "waiting" to marry me in the next few years will not be the same as the effort that I will need to put out.
I just don't know what to do...maybe I should just pack it up and go home...
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Young Lady,
ReplyDeleteThere are always moment in life when everything seems to turn against you. This is the reality of life. Take it easy and fight on. I have just discovered that you are one of my few followers. Thank you for the support.
Bill
Thank you for your encouragement, Bill. I stumbled upon your blog when I was researching for my law essay. =)
DeleteI found your blog to be very thoughtful and informative, especially for aspiring lawyers like me. Are you in the legal profession as well?
Young Lady,
DeleteI have not been working in the 9 years or so. I left the judiciary when I decided to migrate to Sydney. From then on, I was just engaging in doing housework, cooking and driving my daughters to and fro from high school and then uni. Now, my elder daughter has been working in the investment bank for 5 years now and my younger one has also graduated and started working. I picked up reading the appeal cases again some 2 years ago and started writing my shallow views by offending a lot of people. A bloke in the commercial radio in HK asked me to host their program. I declined the offer. I just enjoy unfettered freedom of writing and criticising without the need to give face to anyone. If you read my growth story (in my blog), you would know that I grew up in the poor environment in HK and was very lazy studying. I did not achieve anything at all. You have overstated my insight and my Chinese. My languages fall short of envy. If you want to improve your Chinese, reading good book and start writing something is the best way to improve yourself. You are still young and there are a lot of opportunities and aspirations to do something enjoyable. I, like a lot of people, have ups and downs in life. Just keep going.