Patience...

"Patience: A minor form of despair disguised as a virtue." ~ Ambrose Bierce

I completely agree with this quote...I'm not a very patient person. I think it's because I grew up in a society where everything is so instantaneous. People want instant gratifications. But I think being patient is more about the attitude than the actual waiting itself. I really admire those people who have this virtue because it seems like nothing in the would can tick them off. They also seem to be happier people. I think that is a quality I'm lacking because I'm not the most optimistic person out there. I should probably start reading some self-help books.

How long more do I have to wait. Each day that goes by adds to my worry...I don't know what I'm going to do if I sign into the system and it says "Rejected".

Waiting again...

I haven't been on here for so long because life just hasn't been exciting enough to write about. Or maybe because I have no time to even sleep in Hong Kong. It's actually quite funny looking back at my old posts. When I read that I was waiting for an offer for the law program in April of 2010, I was surprised that it has already been that long. Well, I did finally get accepted into the program but only for the full time program because they no longer offer their part-time program. So I declined the offer and started work instead. Two years later, here I am again, waiting for an offer for the same program from the same school. Hopefully, I will receive some good news from the school again. I am really determined to become a lawyer and I have worked so hard in the past 2 years to try to realize my dream. It would be devastating if I can't get into the program. I don't even want to imagine the possibility.


I guess the worse case scenario would be for me to stay in my current program and wait until graduation to go into PCLL. But I truly want to transfer to JD because I think the quality of teaching would be much higher.

Home Sick

I have been in Hong Kong for two and a half weeks now and am still looking for a job. There are plenty of jobs available but it seems like nothing is what I want to do. Maybe I have too high of an expectations... Sometimes I regret that I did not work hard enough at school... maybe I should've concentrated on school instead of work... I am not sure if any company is even interested or value my work experience.

I still don't have a place to live and I miss having a place to call my own. It's really difficult to live out of a drawer.  I surprised myself that I cried so hard because I was home sick; it never once occurred to me that I would be so upset about leaving home. I've always thought that Hong Kong was my home... but maybe I didn't realize that all these years Vancouver has already became my home.

The people in Hong Kong is a little difficult to get used to... many are really rude and impolite...sigh.... 

I can't believe that as a university graduate, I can't even afford a 100 sq ft. of living space.... I saw this demonstration flat in Ikea yesterday,  the flat was 346 sq. ft. and I LOVED the space! I would love to be able to live in a space like that... it was so cozy! I hope I will be able to have a place to call my own soon.

Sometimes I feel that my boyfriend wouldn't understand me because he has nothing much to worry about in his life. He has a nice home, school term waiting ahead... everything going for him. Why would he want to leave his cozy life and live with me... I know he's always trying to comfort me... a few years may fly by for him... but to me these 2.5 weeks feels like half a year. I am not sure if he understands the pain that I am going through..... the effort that he will spend "waiting" to marry me in the next few years will not be the same as the effort that I will need to put out.

I just don't know what to do...maybe I should just pack it up and go home...

Stressed out of my brain

Sigh... I am really stressed out... still no news from any law school... except for the fact that one of them won't be offering the part-time programme this year... I am so unlucky... why?! I really hope that I can get this opportunity to pursue my dream... 

Is it going to be better!?

Congratulations to my Dearest friend!

Congratulations!! I am so happy for you, you got accepted into the Juris doctor programme! You rock! I really hope that you will accept the offer =) Even though I am still waiting for my acceptance letter... maybe we will become classmates... if not... at least I can live my dream vicariously through you... lol

You keep telling me that I shouldn't worry about my application status until all my finals are done... but you know that's hard... I guess maybe I won't be accepted... and God just doesn't want me to be all upset and stuff like that. Which I guess I would be really sad if that's the case... I don't know if I'd have courage to try applying again next year... I mean if they don't accept me this year... why would they accept me next year... right?

Anyway... this post is not about me... I am dedicating it to you, my love...

Sleepless Nights

I must say I really love to sleep but I don't think I will get much of that during the next week.

It's hard to believe that I only have 1 week left in my bachelor's career (or so I hope!)... I can't say I am gonna miss this because I really want this to be over so I can start a new chapter of my life. I am really hoping that the next chapter will be much more exciting and fulfilling.

Regardless, I know I will have my love in the next chapter of my life. I am really glad that I have a person by my side encouraging me and cheering me on all the time. I don't know what I will do without him and I would really like to thank him for accepting me for who I am and taking all kinds of crap from me. LOML!

It's a Gloomy Day in Vancouver!

It's a gloomy day for me both inside and out... I felt really deflated after yesterday's final exam. I feel like such a failure! I studied for it.. and I just didn't do as well as I'd hoped.

So I have finished 3 finals now... 4 more to go next week and 3 more essays to complete. I really hope I can finish the essays in 3 fulls days because I really don't have much time to get them done anymore... I am really stuck though... I need an energy boost.... hell... any boost will do... Still no news from any law school, but my boyfriend as already been conditionally accepted... >__< I really hope I get a response soon, I hate this wait... this endless and torturous wait! I wonder if I'll even get in.. and if I don't I really don't know what to do with my life! It's really sad to thing that my life is down to the line. It feels that if I don't get this my life is gonna be over; I am just gonna be a failure forever... yeah yeah I know that's not true.. but I can't help but think that way! I feels like time flew by in the past month. I really need it to slow down so I can think; so I can finish my work...

It's a gloomy day in Vancouver....