Beautiful British Columbia

I am home! It's so great that I am finally home after 2 years. It is nice to see my family and relax a bit; away from the craziness of Hong Kong. When I planned to come home last year, I had a whole list of To-Do items. But now that I'm back, I feel that the best way to spend my time in Vancouver is just to spend my time with my family. I may not have the perfect family but every family has a different story; mine may be crazy at times, but I believe that we love each other deep down.

I am still waiting for the good news from the school I applied to. I am really hoping for a miracle...

Light at the end of the tunnel

One more exam then I am free... it has been a stressful month preparing for my exams. But I understand that it was nothing compared to the life of a lawyer. Hopefully, I will pass all my courses so I still have a back up plan if the program that I applied for won't accept me. Of course, I'd much rather get accepted into the new program then staying in my current one.

It would be quite disappointing if I don't get admitted because it will be a chance for me to have a fresh start... a much needed fresh start and second chance to pursue something I want to do. A chance for me to pursue my dreams without any distractions. When I think back into my university life, I never really got to enjoy what it was like to be a dedicated full-time student. I have always had a full-time job while pursuing my full-time study; so it's difficult for me to say that I had an amazing university student life. I am hoping this new program will give me a chance to experience something that I crave... the life of a student. I have been reading forums regarding the application status, and it seems that a lot of people who applied later than me have already received their offers. I am a bit deflated, but I guess it's out of my hands now. I could only hope that I will see the light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Searching...

Sometimes, I wonder if He listens... on the one hand, I am sure that He's everywhere and watching our every move. But sometimes, it seems like He's completely ignoring me. Or maybe I'm running away from Him... I don't know. But I want Him in my life again

A Better Future

I quit my job! I have been saying this for a while now but I finally did it. I wasn't able to concentrate on school as much as I would like and I believe this will be better for my ultimately. I just received an email from my program notifying me that I did not fulfill the minimum attendance record.  I hope they will consider that I have already quit my job and am determined to finish the program. At the same time, I still haven't received the admission offer from the program I wish to be admitted. I am really worried but what can I do? Quitting my job is a really significant gesture that I am determined to pursue my legal career. But it seems there are constant obstacles in the way. Is it a sign that I shouldn't be pursuing this? I'm really confused... I don't know what to do.

Patience...

"Patience: A minor form of despair disguised as a virtue." ~ Ambrose Bierce

I completely agree with this quote...I'm not a very patient person. I think it's because I grew up in a society where everything is so instantaneous. People want instant gratifications. But I think being patient is more about the attitude than the actual waiting itself. I really admire those people who have this virtue because it seems like nothing in the would can tick them off. They also seem to be happier people. I think that is a quality I'm lacking because I'm not the most optimistic person out there. I should probably start reading some self-help books.

How long more do I have to wait. Each day that goes by adds to my worry...I don't know what I'm going to do if I sign into the system and it says "Rejected".

Waiting again...

I haven't been on here for so long because life just hasn't been exciting enough to write about. Or maybe because I have no time to even sleep in Hong Kong. It's actually quite funny looking back at my old posts. When I read that I was waiting for an offer for the law program in April of 2010, I was surprised that it has already been that long. Well, I did finally get accepted into the program but only for the full time program because they no longer offer their part-time program. So I declined the offer and started work instead. Two years later, here I am again, waiting for an offer for the same program from the same school. Hopefully, I will receive some good news from the school again. I am really determined to become a lawyer and I have worked so hard in the past 2 years to try to realize my dream. It would be devastating if I can't get into the program. I don't even want to imagine the possibility.


I guess the worse case scenario would be for me to stay in my current program and wait until graduation to go into PCLL. But I truly want to transfer to JD because I think the quality of teaching would be much higher.

Home Sick

I have been in Hong Kong for two and a half weeks now and am still looking for a job. There are plenty of jobs available but it seems like nothing is what I want to do. Maybe I have too high of an expectations... Sometimes I regret that I did not work hard enough at school... maybe I should've concentrated on school instead of work... I am not sure if any company is even interested or value my work experience.

I still don't have a place to live and I miss having a place to call my own. It's really difficult to live out of a drawer.  I surprised myself that I cried so hard because I was home sick; it never once occurred to me that I would be so upset about leaving home. I've always thought that Hong Kong was my home... but maybe I didn't realize that all these years Vancouver has already became my home.

The people in Hong Kong is a little difficult to get used to... many are really rude and impolite...sigh.... 

I can't believe that as a university graduate, I can't even afford a 100 sq ft. of living space.... I saw this demonstration flat in Ikea yesterday,  the flat was 346 sq. ft. and I LOVED the space! I would love to be able to live in a space like that... it was so cozy! I hope I will be able to have a place to call my own soon.

Sometimes I feel that my boyfriend wouldn't understand me because he has nothing much to worry about in his life. He has a nice home, school term waiting ahead... everything going for him. Why would he want to leave his cozy life and live with me... I know he's always trying to comfort me... a few years may fly by for him... but to me these 2.5 weeks feels like half a year. I am not sure if he understands the pain that I am going through..... the effort that he will spend "waiting" to marry me in the next few years will not be the same as the effort that I will need to put out.

I just don't know what to do...maybe I should just pack it up and go home...